im still drawing... im just sitting on a lot of it currently. my computer is more or less in limbo. its funny how this shit happens so often! this was the issue once before, though the exact mechanisms differ between each instance. long story short, ive got a job and im working my ass off to try and score a new computer. a desktop this time. the novelty of dragging a fucking computer everywhere with you has worn my patience thin. i enjoy using them to do my art, but i dislike that my life has revolved around them for so long. im through with sitting in front of this thing all the time! which maybe also why im not all that active on this site as much as i used to.

to be honest the ads are getting really fucking obnoxious. i know i know, advertizing big company whatever... but what a drag, man. i know ill still be active probably long into the continuous nightmare spiral of cock-suck this website has chosen for itself. so yeah! im really happy if anyone still reads these. im also sorry for how goddamn bitchy i used to be. none of that shit anymore.

i made the realization that i need to make art more of a priority in my life. ive been too afraid to ever put myself to completing anything for anyone... not even myself, to be honest. i cant count the number of times ive started shit, made all these grandiose plans, vowed that i would finish it and have a beautiful finished product to page between my fingers... feel the weight of a finished product in my hands like i used to when i was younger and would flood the house with stapled booklets of warped, eight year-old consciousness. ive become a lot more confident lately, i think. ive actively been trying to move forward and shed this stale mindset ive grown so comfortable in. im tired of being sad all the time. im tired of it bleeding my accomplishments of their meaning.

i could go into a long rant about my recent thoughts on human affairs and... ugh... politics, but that shit always irritated me. doesnt it you? Kingslayers will be my vehicle for those thoughts, except in a useful, creative way. its one thing to complain about world leaders on a message board. its another to be out in the streets harassing congressmen terrorizing the elderly and worshipping satan and his multicultural apocalypse nightmare army of socialist lesbian black-nationalist/pagan mexican-jew lizards.

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dont you love it when you get super super high, and you can feel it in the crown of your skull and you feel really creative... like my hands are gonna explode if i dont draw, like ive got these images really cripplingly powerful lucid images in my head of how its supposed to be but my goddamn hands are still so childish and clumsy!

please stick around because wonderful things are on the way. one love me rasta.

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